Sunday, May 14, 2017

Mi Amorcito



I was just thinking of how different life might have been.

Moments slipped by so fast, so many lost and forgotten.

Nothing truly captured, reality sadly erased with time.

Here we are now holding on to the seconds of life.

Trying to feel the heartbeats, keeping the tears inside our minds.

Wishing the journey had lasted longer, maybe with gentler kinder waves.

I know you're still here loving me with all that you have.

It's just that a part of you is trapped unable to communicate your love.

This loss has me lost and frightened, desperately yearning for the clock to rewind.

All I want is for you know and understand how much I love you.

That we are eternally connected by something greater than life.

Without you I lose myself and slowly cease to exist.

I know these words are too late and meaningless now.

I just thought I had plenty of time to say them.

I hope you feel them somehow and know that my heart is forever with you.

Happy Mother's Day mi amorcito - I am always here for you.


Monday, May 1, 2017

Wherever Here Is


Ok, so I don't know where here is.

Seems simple enough a statement but has me wandering under bridges.

Is here before or after you?

Is here my mind, my body or my soul?


Tough to figure out wherever here is.

I thought I knew, I thought it was clear enough,

but I don't seem to know a thing anymore.

I figure it's alright not to know, to float, to dream,


to live in two parallel worlds.

Wherever here is, now seems to be suspended

somewhere between me and you.



Saturday, March 25, 2017

I'm Racing

Rhythm lost, conformity dead, sword broken

Cobwebs imprison my mind grounded

Something's missing, can't place it. can't grasp it

Racing the darkness before it arrives

Keeping in shadows layering armor

I'm racing


Shielding life

Exhausted by people who walk with the purpose of stepping off cliffs

Discouraged by those I find sitting on ledges

Wordless disappointment, unexplainable loss

Chasing moon drops for a sign

Waiting for answers to unfold

I'm Racing


Tuesday, March 14, 2017

Dearest Love

Dearest love,

I am writing to let you know that I have missed you.

Sometimes when it's really quiet I hear the sound of your voice in my head.

Other times for no reason at all your image flashes before me.

I wish that I had hugged you when I said goodbye, held  you close for one last time.

I wish that I had told you that I loved you dearly, but words escaped me as I ran.


I never knew how to truly believe, how to stop to be loved.

I never felt forever was in me, that peace could occupy my soul.

So today I decided to write and let you know that you're still living inside me,

deeply engraved in every crevice of my heart.

As for me I seem to be somewhere between the earth and the howling wind,


still unsettled, still at war, still unable to come find you.

I hope you understand.

For now just know that I carry you with me everywhere I go,

and maybe one day the paths that pulled us apart might bring us together again.

I love you.

Wednesday, March 8, 2017

Forever Changed

Never a straight line is the path down a mountain.

The rock falling will encounter obstacles that will hinder its descent.

Rubbing it, blocking it, redirecting it little by little wearing it down.

Sadly the journey will not be without its countless scars.

Some rocks will get stuck in the grooves along the way, ending their trip. 


Some will be shattered beyond recognition and form, while others

will be softened with each blow made to lose their shimmering edge.

But no matter the downward course, all will be forever changed.

No rock will ever be as it was, leaving in its place 

fragmented pieces of what once stood high.



Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Eternally Beating


Eternal is the heart,
that never finds its peace.

Beating through decay it festers,
twisting, squeezing inside its lifeless tomb.


Replaying phrases, words and meanings,
 reliving flashes that brought upon demise.

Nothing but echoes left to ripple,
back, forth, forever throughout the ends of time.




Thursday, January 28, 2016

Time


Time is fading
so much unsaid, so much undone.

Floating somewhere between
yesterday and tomorrow.

Looking for today to unravel
itself through the wind.

Feeling the loss of the moment past
and the moment that will never come to be.

Needing time to freeze until 
I finally figure out this ride called life.


Sunday, May 17, 2015

Home To You

I lost the fire to my soul,
somewhere in time.

Since, it has been wandering,
centuries looking to find and inhale yours.

The stars are not as bright and
the Sun never burns my skin anymore.

Looking for your essence
in the empty eyes of strangers,




feeling for your presence
under each and every stone,

endlessly I wander,
to feel the fire of your touch.

Hopelessly needing to hear the universe,
through the whispers of your voice.

Alas, long and weary is the road
that leads me home to you.






Friday, February 6, 2015

Opening the Door to Life

With light I travel on the path that I carve.

There's a glow on the ground by my footsteps leading charge.


How funny to wander running circles in the mind,

waiting for time to clear the clutter filling up the habits of the daily grind.


Then suddenly without warning, my footing becomes long

moving towards shiny moon drops, like a new born yearning strong.


Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Lost With You

Timeless moments spent roaming in search of eternal flames.

Thirsty for the unattainable and aching for the treasures hidden inside the walls.

Breathless and determined we wandered losing ourselves in the maze of life.

This I carry back as I cross over into my universe, my time, my life.

I carry within me the rubble that captured my heart in a city lost with you.

Saturday, September 6, 2014

Lost In Translation

The world is a marvel

to cherish, to love.

Its people descendants
of gods all above.

How hard is it really
to reach out a hand?


To comfort the needy
to nourish their land.

Is peace just an imagine
in some off dreamland?

Or will we cross over
revolt and finally disband? 






Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Crossroad

The button that I pushed,
found its way across to you.

It was simple misdirection,
not pure quantum calculation.

Didn't think about the journey,
nor the stops along each day.

Just kept looking for more buttons,
to keep doors and paths your way.


The conspiracy to journey,
to defy an act of fate,

brought the voyage to an ending,
through a windless sailing state.

So I stopped and took a breather,
at a crossroad found a row.

Felt a loss of something greater,
but knew time had lost its glow.


Sunday, January 26, 2014

In Search of a Soul


So here I am ~ alone,
filtering the pieces ~ snipping,
wondering at the shape.

How did the puzzle of my life web out,
to its existing shape?

Where did the fit get forced in,
to create this design?

Was it possible to transform the shapes,
into different patterns ~ to bring an outcome,
that included love, trust, support, and sunshine?

Cutting and reshaping the pieces of my life,
seem a reasonable choice ~ but into what?

Where do I reroute?  Where do I delete?
Where do I add ~ and what shape should it be?

These are the questions left,
the questions left to life.

Sunday, November 3, 2013

The Dance of Travel

Took a train-ride into Boston that inspired me to move.

Saw the landscape through the tree-line full of beauty and soft bloom.

Colors rich in reds and yellows, orange browns on green soft hills.

What an eyesight to behold my vision ~ thirsty, hungry for a thrill.


It reminded me that bridges are the crossings of the bold,

always timeless, always reaching through the passage and the old.

Farms and buildings made of bricks laid across the rails unraveled.

And with beauty and cloaked magic made me feel the dance of travel.


Lifeline



Sing a song to me at nighttime
when the moon is full and bright.

Sing of dreams with soft caresses
sing of silks and feathers' flight.

When you finish all your verses
reach and touch my tired shore.

Cause your songs enchant the lifeline
that keeps air inside my core.

Mind Graffiti


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The colors that have splattered are 
the markings of my mind.

They are full of bright sharp edges
with soft circles at each line.

Single letters tell a story
each with bold and curvy strokes.

Sometimes loudly, sometimes softly
but each layered in the mold.

How I wish a pretty picture
could these images portray.

But instead, they are the markings
of a burst of cans array.

Have you ever painted over
walls that never seem to end?

It's impossible to phantom how
graffiti stays on sand.




Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Behind Every Flag Lies a Borderless Sun

The silly ramblings of a hopeless wanderer!




You are the voice inside my head that I don't know how to let go of.

If I stop carrying you with me everywhere I go ... will you cease to exist or will I?

Knowing that I will never reach you leaves me aching at my core.

My heart feels lost, my mind feels empty ... my spirit broken.

You were the lighthouse, the beam that kept leading me home ... 

Now I carry my home in my shadow  ... 

always close enough to see ... but never able to reach or touch.

Yesterday I thought of you as you can clearly see ...

but thoughts alone don't transform a dream.

Letting go of you is like letting go of me ... what do I do?

You will forever be my curse, my dream, my life ... my loss.



Friday, February 15, 2013

Through Love & Light


Launched ~ February 14, 2013 
Stay Tuned ;-)



Friday, October 12, 2012

Somebody Like You ...



I knew of your importance before I ever knew you.

I felt the loss of not having you before you even appeared.

I ached at not being able to touch you before hearing your voice.

Paralyzed by your image unfolding before me, I froze.

You were never meant to be real.

You were a dance inside my head,  

a fantasy whispering love songs into my soul.

Yet you came!

How could I react to knowing you were real?

To knowing every thought I had you knew ... 

every feeling I felt you felt?

How could I let you in when you were inside me ...

 silent, watching ...

I couldn't cross over to tell you I had been waiting ... 

waiting for you all along.

In the end all I had was fear ...

Fear of not being good enough ...

Fear of not ever knowing how to love ... 

Somebody like you.

Friday, July 20, 2012

Loophole in Love ~ The Prenup

A Prenuptial Agreement as defined in legal terms is: a written contract between two people who are about to marry, setting out the terms of possession of assets, treatment of future earnings, control of the property of each, and potential division if the marriage is later dissolved.


Breaking down the reality behind the Prenup ~ My Spin: 
Although wise in narrow and limited cases a prenup has a way of rubbing even the most loving person the wrong way. A prenup says so much more than what is written on paper.


It says that in the event the marriage ends up in divorce:  
He/she does not trust that you will be fair. 
He/she feels you are a poor player.  
He/she does not believe in you. 
He/she needs to guard himself/herself from you. 
He/she has issues sharing with you. 
He/she values possessions over you. 
He/she doesn’t believe you will amount to a thing. 
He/she needs to protect himself/herself from what you are capable of doing. 
He/she does not want to see you get your fair share. 
He/she needs to be extra, extra secure.


When love just isn't enough ;-)

Friday, March 30, 2012

Soul's Journey




A tiny beam resides,
encased.

Circling in a sphere,
imprisoned.

Fighting to escape,
energized.

Pushing on all walls,
surrounded.

Aiming for its home,
released.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Elections

Transparency ~ fluid, clear, unattainable.

Democracy ~ failing, festering, sealed.

Both enlightened concepts,

Both fighting darkness to escape,

Both sparking, flickering,
yet never lighting.

Forever trapped in the apathy
of the human mind.


Wednesday, October 19, 2011

For A Moment In Time


For a moment in time,
I felt the wind beneath my feet.

For a moment in time,
I climbed the hilltops that were steep.

For a moment in time,
I reached the clouds that were so high.

For a moment in time,
I inhaled beauty that did not die.

For years every moment was dedicated to an eternal search for those hypnotic moments in time that left me breathless. Those moments that haunted my every dream, that haunted my every waking hour.

I existed in a world where moments needed to be captured and caged, where moments needed to be totally devoured. Ironically in a twist of fate, time itself began to weigh down those moments to the point of gasping imprisonment. Enslaved by my own thirst of the moment, I struggled to seek an escape.

Finally, the magical power that once existed in the moment with its promise of everlasting euphoria lost its hold over me. For once, time allowed me the gift of breaking away. The chains that bound my hands, my feet, my mind, my soul began to release their hold on me.

Through the whispers of the wind, a sweetness more powerful than any moment in time appeared to me and set me free. Free to appreciate not just a particular moment but 'every' moment time had to offer. Free to feel life's moments caress my skin and cover me with a blanket of their love.

Free to give birth to a flight that through its turmoil decided that chaos should give birth to a tiny, little, lost and weathered pebble ... me.



Friday, July 29, 2011

Lack of Transparency

Lack of transparency is and has always been the culture of all governments throughout the world. Although the degree is debatable, its existence is deeply embedded into every political ideology. This is a fact and cannot be argued. For example, I find it amusing the extent many go to defend that they have freedoms by attempting to rationalize that other Nations have far less and we should feel fortunate to live here in the United States. It is sad that we as a people allow apathy to lesson our expectations of our government. Right now with all eyes on Washington DC corruption festers with each decision and indecision being made because ultimately; transparency does not exist.

Without full transparency, Democracy is just another word for tyranny.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Melting Borders

The measure of a man/woman is what he does with power ~ Plato

As I attempt to cultivate my cosmopolitan moral and socio-political philosophy, I find myself studying behavioral patterns of existing power balancers and shifters more and more. Although volatile at times in numerous regions, the quest for stability in order to maintain the status quo within certain power states while allowing weaker systems to fracture has always intrigued me. I especially find the fear factor thrown into the mix by strong leaders the most relevant of all measures in the social phenomena.

It seems 'power' continues to be engraved in the core of the human psyche. Given the advancement of technology the animal within humankind still wins every time.

For me, global stability will only come from collective security. This would mean power would have to be distributed equally and not hoarded amongst the few. Will this ever occur? Will our state of existence ever evolve? Most likely not given the world stage at this moment but it is an interesting concept.

An enlightened society has a way of not only breaking down walls but ultimately melting borders.



Sunday, September 26, 2010

How?

How can I put each day aside, letting it fade into the past

erasing all images, I have stored in my heart of you?

Is life so shallow that our existence consists of only what we touch?

And, if when we remember, does it have to be like a dream

or a fantasy we are not sure we even experienced?

How can I bring back what I once felt, what I once loved?

How can I bring back the stars that seemed to touch my fingertips,

the moon that brightened even the darkest of all of my nights?

How can I bring back the light that entered my being ,

how, when I do not even have you?


Note: Just sharing a piece of writing I once wrote.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

If Honesty Was Made Into Law

There are many laws today that concern us. But, out of these laws someone forgot to add the importance of honesty into the mix. If a law could be made to make people have to be honest, life would be so much different.

Imagine going to the supermarket and buying a pound of meat. Today when we go it looks pink and juicy. But, if honesty was a law, the markets could not plump up the meat with water and add additives for color. They would also not be able to include those soaked strips of paper that add at least two ounces to its weight. Just think how nice it would be to take home that 1/2 a pound of brown paper thin piece of meat to place on your grill. At least, you could eat it proudly knowing that it came to you with total honesty.

How about the police that stop you for a speeding ticket? Can you imagine how nice it would be if while driving down a highway there were bright signs that tell you to lower your speed. Instead, they are added to a sign saying, "Thank You for Visiting Us," while a tree hides a small inconspicuous 45 MPH sign way down to your far right by a ditch.

If honesty was made into law our economy would not only boom once again but be totally sustained by its new and ever growing prisons! ;-)

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Still Looking For The Perfect Hero

I seem to have entered into a blogger's black hole. Words escape me as I keep pushing on my quest for finding the selfless human hero that would surpass the attributes of a firefighter. Sort of stuck! Every door I look through seems to have an underlying / hidden agenda.

Always remember that in life you can measure a person's backbone by how upright they stand when running as well as the direction of their path.





Saturday, March 20, 2010

The Personal Qualities and Attributes of a Firefighter Beat the Politician's Mindset Hands Down

Have you ever thought seriously about the personal characteristics of the firefighter? I have -> over & over :)

How many politicians would go blindly into a building to save a life? Can't say any come to mind can you?

The firefighter not only believes in but respects the diversity that makes us a civilization. So much so that they offer their life to uphold these values.

I myself am far from perfection. As far as character flaws go, I run the full spectrum of the rainbow. Yet, I know that when it comes down to it the firefighter, a total stranger will give up their life fighting any obstacle to protect mine. It never ever gets more personal than that. The political mindset on the other hand will not only leave me to perish but refer to my demise after the fact, as collateral damage.

How sad that our political leaders lack the ethical approach to protecting the life of others that is innate in firefighters. When we as citizens demand more from those serving us they might just amuse us and draft a bill. Anyone in the mood for some pork ? ;)

You guessed it! Today was a plug for the most committed and selfless hero out there: the firefighter.

My way
of saying yes: I noticed you.



Wednesday, February 17, 2010

The People's Attraction To Their Political Leaders

Seems like a fitting month to discuss the charismatic lure political leaders have over their subjects -- >

I have always wondered what the single most critical factor is when a citizen picks their political leader. After all, for all those that go to the polls, there must be something that does indeed lock their vote well enough in one direction for them to vote. What might that something be? My guess: charisma.

The charismatic leader gives off a sense of security to all who wish to be under their leadership. They are the equivalent of a Santa, Rambo, and Papa Smurf all rolled into one. This leader offers to give without taking while crushing anything and anyone that comes in the way of the village. At least this seems to be the essence of what the political charisma gives off. Seen in another way however, the charismatic leader is selling life, and a long and secure life seems to be able to put anyone under its magical spell. Still, as time passes and the charismatic spell wears off, we tend to be left with little more than minor disturbances to the status quo.

Overall, I find that Political charm is a bit like Valentine's Day. If done just right you can get a bit of mileage out the sweet delicious chocolate bon bons. Ultimately though, there is bound to be a crash and the elation of the moment fades. Stuck in such predicaments, people gripe and moan, no amount of regret will take back their votes.

Anyway, next time a politician tries to charm his or her way with your vote take out the fan and blow away the smoke. Hot air out of the picture, you might just find nothing left to distract you.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Welcoming 2010

This year I plan on continuing with the process of self simplification as well as the further cleansing of my values! Striving to become a person of worth not through possessions but through selfless acts is my primary goal.

Our life is fragile! Anyone not wishing to come to terms with that needs to visit the recent devastation in ~Haiti ~

We all have a responsibility to self evolve as well as to communally help everyone around us if we wish to continue as a species. Life is a gift. Whether through individual feats of courage or group achievement everyone always makes a difference in this world.

As far as politics is concerned remember that we the INDIVIDUALS have the power! ---> Governments should not fear revolutions as much as they should fear the encroachment of an enlightened society.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Everyone Makes A Difference In This World

Because of the paradox of humanity's coexistence of wealth and technology with suffering and deprivation, a while back I decided to light my own match and begin the process of self simplification. I found an overwhelming need for the cleansing of my values!

The economic crisis we suffered and are still struggling to overcome forced me like many others to re-examine priorities. The further instability of the global markets became the final catalyst that awakened those who chose to live and function inside their local bubble. Luckily for me, I wasn't that isolated but still needed a huge overhaul of what I once considered to be my lifestyle. As I looked around me I found that because more and more people heard the knock of hardship at their own door something once dormant was blooming. The birth of empathy seemed to be spreading like fire. Unbelievable as it might sound people actually began to care for the plight of their fellow human beings and I knew that if nothing else hope was still alive. The light I saw in others gave me the courage to alter my path, unload what I once valued as dear and strive to become a person of worth not through possessions but through selfless acts.

So here I am reminding everybody that we all have a responsibility to self evolve as to communally help everyone around us. Whether through individual feats of courage or group achievement everyone makes a difference in this world.

Governments should not fear revolutions as much as they should fear the encroachment of an enlightened society.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Legum Servi Sumus Ut Liberi Esse Possimus-Cicero


Frustrated about the direction of the political status quo and its players made me think of something I read a long time ago by Cicero, " Legum servi sumus ut liberi esse possimus." This sentence translates into simple words which say-> "We are slaves of the laws in order that we may be able to be free."

The question is are we free because of these laws and if so 'how' free? These sets of laws that we have subjected ourselves to over and over in order to better society as a whole have a HUGE hole in them. There is a feature missing. Something in our modern Democracy and the doctrines it is based on is faulty. Question is why is it taking so long to make Democracy serve its constituents instead of having us 'serve' Democracy's appointed demigods?

Does being a slave to the laws set before us in order to protect society at large really free us? If it does why are we in servitude then to these laws and who is it we serve: ourselves or the leaders that have have passed them?

I sense that the ones being primarily served under these structures are the ones the laws benefit the most - the elite. It seems that if there is no benefit to the hierarchy certain laws would not be passed.

But what do I know ?

Monday, July 13, 2009

My Heart Is Always With You

These past few days have made me sadly reflect much more than I would
like to have. Two dear friends of mine lost their mothers. One dear friend
laid her mother to rest this past week after months of seeing her suffer
while my other dear friend lost her mother last year on the 15th of this month.

To date my life has been spent avoiding deep expression. I have made it a
point to feel as little as possible and to just survive. The overwhelming
sorrow and pain felt by those
so close to me changed that this week.

I wrote this little poem to let them know how I feel so they know my heart is always with them.


If I could draw a picture
of everything I feel,

I somehow would recapture
the images so real.

My heart would be the culprit
to sketch it without fear,

and smear upon a canvas
a picture of a tear.




Sunday, May 24, 2009

Why I Find Micro-Blogging Impersonal

I think the lure of micro-blogging has so enchanted us all that we find ourselves chained to its simplistic demands. Where else could we spit out a few short thought out words and just walk away continuing our day?

This is why today my micro-blogging commentary will be short but to the point!

Although micro-blogging fits our schedules and our rapidly growing 'short' attention spans it makes us dehumanize our behavior. We become mechanical and unfeeling. We read comments as if they were being mass produced from out of the vastness of space and forget that behind these written words are actual people. The need for quick/short info seems to have forced many of us to lack civility in our interactions with each other. The 'primary' human tool is no longer fire but the delete/remove button!

As we go forward into the future and micro-blogging evolves into 'one micro grunt' let's not 'ever' forget that behind every GRUNT is a mammal->us!

When micro-blogging remember to: Keep it real-Keep it personal-Keep it human!

I WOULD LIKE TO END BY SAYING THOUGH THAT SOME OF THE MOST AMAZING PEOPLE ARE FOUND IN THESE CIRCLES! So when feeling down because you have to do so much sifting to find the great ones--just smile and keep going: They're out there! :)

Saturday, April 11, 2009

After All Shouldn't We Fight For Democracy In This Country Too?

On December 6, 2008, I began a Series of Commentaries on President George W. Bush, as I counted down the days left to his Presidency. Here is the link for anyone that is curious to read it.
Series of Commentaries on President George W. Bush

It has ALWAYS bugged me as to why I did not finish this countdown. I know the holidays were upon us and life really had its demands. Yet, this should have/could have never stopped me had I 'really' wanted to finish my commentaries to the last final day.

WHAT HAPPENED? I myself have been pondering my thoughts on this very matter since Day 20, December 30, 2008 when I wrote my last post.

It hit me! KATRINA HAD HAPPENED!
On Day 22nd and Day 21st, I touched upon my thoughts of Bush 43 and the Administration's handling of Katrina. Reliving these thoughts TOTALLY DISGUSTED ME!

I understood an enemy attacking this country. Enemies do that sort of thing I hear. When one's OWN government allows for its people to sit like drowning rats, I find it TOTALLY heartbreaking!

It has been exactly 81 days since Bush's last day (still LOVE the clock above).
President Obama will at least try to bring back some integrity to this position and for that I do respect the man. Will he change the BUREAUCRACY set in stone in the government?

"Changing the bureaucracy rampant in our government is left up to us the constituency. We have to take 'more responsibility' for our own destiny! We need to become 'more involved' and become 'more aware' so that 'collectively' we have 'more say/power.'

After all shouldn't we fight for Democracy in this country too?" ;)